Fertility, First time Mum, Mental health, Parent

I am Woman hear me roar!

I am Women by Helen Reddy came on the radio today and it actually brought a tear to my eye. Not because I feel persecuted as a women, far from it. I feel lucky to have been born into a family, in a time, in a country that celebrates women and sees them as equals. It did make me realise, however, what came before me and what is still happening in other parts of the world. The fact that I got emotional about it made me think about my own mental health. It was the second song I had cried at today and since having Samuel I am definitely more emotional in terms of crying at daft things.

People who know me will say that I’m a positive person. I could put a positive spin on the worst case scenario. At work I am known for being laid back and the one that doesn’t let anything phase her. However 4 years of trying and failing to conceive definitely took its toll mentally as well as physically. In that time I had some horrendous panic attack’s and every month my period arrived would leave me devastated. When I was on fertility tablets I was in so much pain that I would lay awake at night sobbing and that definitely had an impact on how I felt. When you have no control over what is happening to you it can leave you feeling incapable. I hid it well. Put on a brave face.

If anyone who knows me is reading this don’t worry I’m all good. Samuel definitely made everything I went through worth it. I would do a thousand times over for him. I just wanted to highlight that sometimes people who look okay are not okay and that we all deal with what life throws at us in completely different ways.

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Child development, diary, Early Years, First time Mum, Parent, Photography, Travel

Photos of the Week

Late again but here are my favourite photos/moments of the week. Actually as I am so late they are photos of the fortnight.

Give Samuel a wide open space and he will run around like crazy. He loves to be outside and is definitely at his happiest when he is.

When a trip to Pets at Home is as much fun as a day out. Samuel and Henry loved looking at the animals and fish.

You can’t tell from his face but Samuel loves his friend Evelyn and she adores him.

Autumn walk collecting leaves and feathers. Samuel loved picking things up and bringing them to me.

To Samuel you climb the wrong way up a slide then slide back down on your belly. If it makes him this happy who cares.

I will try and get more regular with my posts again.

Child development, Cruising, First time Mum, Parent, Photography

Photos of the Week

Very late in posting this week but it’s been super busy. Here are my favourite pictures/moments from last week.

Our boy is walking now. He walks everywhere and with such skill. It seems to have happened so quickly but at the same time it feels like he has always been doing it.

Ha ha this photo! One baby not looking, one having a meltdown, one being her usual angelic self and one pulling a silly face. Not the perfect picture we had in mind but captures the moment beautifully.

On Monday it rained a lot and we got stuck in the car without coats. Samuel didn’t mind he loves being in the drivers seat, making brum noises and pushing all the buttons. He was fascinated by the rain and kept stopping to look out the window.

Samuel settles and falls to sleep on our bed at night then we move him to his own room. On Tuesday night he was just so hyper and had lots of fun bouncing on the bed instead of falling to sleep.

Finally got round to sorting out some of our cruise pics and this was one of them. Two gorgeous boys having the time of their lives. Just love it!

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What Samuel eats in a day pt 3

It’s been a while. Being back at work as left me with no time at all. Here is what a gave Samuel to eat today.

Pre breakfast

Samuel woke early today, about 5:30, and had been restless from about 2am so had a lot of breast milk during the night.

Breakfast

Whilst I prepared Samuels weatabix he had some rice crispies. These are great for practicing that pincer grip. He had his weatabix with warm whole milk and some water to drink.

Morning Snack

Samuel had a tiny piece of tea cake and shared a bag of quavers with his cousin.

Lunch

For lunch I gave Samuel a crumpet thin and some cream cheese. He had some apple and grapes for afterwards. He actually only ate a couple of bites of the crumpet and 1 slice of apple. Not sure why. He loves all those things. Samuel can be very hit and miss at lunch time. He had some more water to drink.

Afternoon Snack

Samuel had an Ella’s Kitchen Red One smoothie. He also had a Fruit Shoot Hydro to drink.

Dinner/Tea

Samuel had chicken breast, mashed potato, peas, sweetcorn, mushrooms and low salt gravy. He ate nearly all of it and the chicken had disappeared before I even had chance to take a picture. Again he had more water to drink and a fromage frais for after.

Bedtime

Samuel had some growing up milk before he went to sleep.

Again nothing fancy just an average day.

First time Mum, Parent, Photography, Uncategorized

20 facts about me!

A couple of weeks ago I was tagged to do 20 facts about me. I have done these a couple of times before and I wanted to try and think of 20 facts that I hadn’t previously shared. It was very hard! I’m really not that interesting. So here they are if, indeed, you are interested.

  1. My name is Gemma Louise. I think Louise is probably the most common middle name there is.
  2. I’m allergic to yellow gold but thankfully I am more of a fan of white and rose gold anyway.
  3. When I was 4 I cut my arm open on the corner of a radiator and I still have the scar today.
  4. I hate the material valour/velvet. The thought of it even sets me on edge.
  5. I really enjoy car journeys if I’m not driving. I think it’s because you can’t feel guilty about sitting there and doing nothing whereas at home you’re always thinking ‘oh I must put that load of washing in’ or ‘I really need to hoover’.
  6. I am 6 months older than my husband. A fact he likes to remind me of on a regular basis.
  7. I have to have a shower every morning. I just can not leave the house without having one. I just wouldn’t feel clean all day.
  8. I love a good old British holiday. Most of my favourite places are in this country and I can’t wait to visit the same places I went as a child with Samuel.
  9. I have seen a ghost but still don’t believe. I am far too logical.
  10. I love a red lipstick. It’s definitely my go to colour on a night out.
  11. I worked behind a bar during my late teens and I loved it. If I worked during the week you would often see me sat at the end of the bar doing my maths and English A level homework.
  12. I have never broken a bone (touch wood)
  13. Lee and I have been together 13 years.
  14. One of my favourite places in the UK is the city of York. Lee even proposed to me there.
  15. I love a good box set binge.
  16. I hate my feet being cold but also hate wearing socks or slippers at home. Lee moans a lot about me putting them on him to try and warm them up.
  17. I love musicals.
  18. I can crochet but haven’t had much time for it since Samuel was born.
  19. I love a printed photograph. I love having them in frames around our home and putting them in albums.
  20. I have turned into an emotional wreck since having Samuel. It seems like the slightest thing sets me off 😭

Hope I haven’t sent you to sleep with those riveting facts. I tag anyone who wants to join in.

Child development, Early Years, First time Mum, Parent, Photography

Photos of the Week

This week has been my first proper one back at work. Samuel has started with the childminder and we have begun to get into some sort of routine. I am also very excited as my Olympus Pen camera has finally been sent back to me after being away for repair for over a month.

Samuel was actually very good a pulling the blocks out on this giant Jenga game. I just had visions of the whole thing toppling down on him.

What I love about my job is being able to get creative. This was taken on one of our training days at the start of the week. We used natural materials to make a shelter for the dragons among other activities that the children might partake in during their Forest School sessions.

This sleeping pic was sent to me by the childminder on Samuels first day. I was so worried that he wouldn’t settle but I had nothing to worry about. Yes there were tears but they didn’t last and I know that it will get easier for both of us.

We went to our local nature reserve on Thursday with Samuels friend Seth and his Mummy. I love seeing Samuel interacting more with other children. The way they communicate with each other just melts my heart.

The way he looks at his Daddy! Daddy was number 1 on Friday as he went to collect Samuel from the childminders. Daddy also always does bath time. They listen to music and have the best time together. Although Samuel is a Mummy’s boy I can see that one day I’m not going to get a look in and it will be all about spending time with Daddy.

Child development, diary, First time Mum, Parent, Photography, Travel

Photos of the Week

I take a lot of photographs and I don’t like to bombard social media with all of them so there are lots of pics that I love but don’t share. That’s one of the reasons why I am really enjoying doing these blog posts.

Here are just a few of my favourite photographs/moments from the last week.

Last Saturday we went to Tattershall Farm Park with my side of the family. It was a lovely day. The sun was shining and I just love seeing how Samuel and his cousin Henry interact with each other. Look at them here holding hands and walking so nicely with Nanna.

Samuel and I went to play at Nanna and Grandads house which of course meant getting in the sandpit. Samuel got wet through and covered in sand so we gave him a bowl bath. He loved it obviously.

Samuel and Henry again. This time they are watching the cars go past and waving to them. Two peas in a pod!

Samuel had the best nap when we went to Yorkshire Wildlife Park on Monday. Thankfully he didn’t miss too many of the animals as he slept during lunch. I don’t get many sleeping photos now as he prefers the room to be dark or he sleeps in the car so I just had to take a pic.

The sand fiend. Seriously he is obsessed. I think I have said that before but it’s true. Give the boy a sandpit and he is happy.

Playing football with Nanna. Of course Nanna is still in her heels. She once walked up the Heights of Abraham in Matlock in her heels.

There we go my weekly round up. See you next week!