Breastfeeding, Child development, Early Years, First time Mum, Mental health, Parent, Weaning

The end of our breastfeeding journey

Well that’s it, our breastfeeding journey has come to an end. Part of me feels a little bit sad writing this. Is has been such a positive experience for both of us and one I was reluctant to let go of. But the time was right to stop and if I’m honest Samuel was naturally wanting less and less anyway. It was more of a comfort than a nourishment for him and the new year seemed liked the perfect time to stop.

If you fancy reading about how we got on breastfeeding in the beginning then check out the post I wrote during National Breastfeeding Week.

So how did we stop? Well we went cold turkey. Samuel was having a feed before bed to settle him, feeds in the middle of the night if he woke and one in the morning. I was actually rather surprised at how easy it was to stop. He had an extra bottle of milk to settle him and one when he woke in the night but that was it. He seemed to sleep better and apart from the odd little tug on my top he has not seemed too fussed about not having it.

It has been just over a week now and thankfully apart from my breasts being slightly tender I haven’t suffered in terms of encouragement either. My hormones on the other hand have felt a bit out of sync and I have felt not quite myself but hopefully they will soon balance themselves back out.

I would love to hear how you stopped and at what age? Did you find it easy or was it a struggle? How did you feel afterwards?

Fertility, First time Mum, Mental health, Parent

I am Woman hear me roar!

I am Women by Helen Reddy came on the radio today and it actually brought a tear to my eye. Not because I feel persecuted as a women, far from it. I feel lucky to have been born into a family, in a time, in a country that celebrates women and sees them as equals. It did make me realise, however, what came before me and what is still happening in other parts of the world. The fact that I got emotional about it made me think about my own mental health. It was the second song I had cried at today and since having Samuel I am definitely more emotional in terms of crying at daft things.

People who know me will say that I’m a positive person. I could put a positive spin on the worst case scenario. At work I am known for being laid back and the one that doesn’t let anything phase her. However 4 years of trying and failing to conceive definitely took its toll mentally as well as physically. In that time I had some horrendous panic attack’s and every month my period arrived would leave me devastated. When I was on fertility tablets I was in so much pain that I would lay awake at night sobbing and that definitely had an impact on how I felt. When you have no control over what is happening to you it can leave you feeling incapable. I hid it well. Put on a brave face.

If anyone who knows me is reading this don’t worry I’m all good. Samuel definitely made everything I went through worth it. I would do a thousand times over for him. I just wanted to highlight that sometimes people who look okay are not okay and that we all deal with what life throws at us in completely different ways.